I’ve been away from this blog for a while, dealing with life…
To at least check in, I figured I’d post a poem. It grew out of hearing the story of the “Gerasene Demoniac” one Sunday Evensong a couple years ago (or so). I recognized myself in the passage.
I feel the need to add a TRIGGER WARNING, as this deals with bipolar and self-injury. But other than that—I’ve been told I shouldn’t over-explain a poem before presenting it, so here it is:
Elaine Elizabeth Belz
MY NAME IS LEGION
I could be the madman in this passage: mine
the howling, the bruises, the manic
smashing of all constraint.
What have you to do
with me, Love?
. I train my voice
to his, in case finding myself in the drama
might amount to faith.
still inscribe their false creed;
feigned hope bleeds into the margins.
But what if I were to profess
these dark stains, stark ciphers
set down on the page? Would belief
leap from dead paper, call forth
my name, and quiet
hollow space between words?
The story plays out as arranged:
Pigs flee the scene,
the madman ambles off, perplexed
—though in his right mind;
. but I
remain in white tombs of the text
poring over my Gerasene scars.
In case this seems familiar, I did blog on the text. You can find that post here.